FRESH START; seriously.

I'm watching One Tree Hill for the first time in a very long while. GOD, Brooke still has the best quotes! "Gold, Godiva, Gucci, and Gerber ---- my jewelry, chocolate, purse, and baby food preference." Oh I swear she's a goddess.

Okay so I said I would put this entire novel long entry in letter format. So here goes a countless amount of hours to my NEW YEARS blog. PS, it's really in no particular order.

Dear Paulo,
Who would have ever imagined that our bond would escalate to this level. I know you already know this but you honestly did save my life. Okay I'm exaggerating! Haha. But you definitely were a vital piece in keeping me sane. Really though, there are very few big brothers who take the time to listen to their irrational little sister go on ranting about her boyfriend and all that gibberish. But all those talks in your room and mine got me through everything, and it strengthened our bond! Well, that and the stolen meals. I truly am blessed to have you as my big brother and I cannot stress the lengths that I am willing to go for you, FAGGOT! Thank you for being more than just my brother, thank you for being an inspiration. Oh and thanks for letting me almost crash your car, for giving me money when I'm broke, and for allowing me to choose all your clubbing outfits! :) You're such a douche bag.

Dear Felisa,
Where do I start with your FEE-NESS! Jesus, you are probably the most ludicrous, tenacious, and fabulous gal that I have ever come across. I really do not want to go into too much depth on how highly I think of you because I'm so sure you already know. Big headed beezie! You're my gym buddy, and damn there is none other like you. Really though. All those ridiculous hours we spent in your '01 Altima ... let's see from the "wheeeeee" spot on the strand, to my kitchen counter with my mom ... from downtown dates to downtown bail bonds ... talk about living for the moment; Rolling with the punch! We have honestly defined spontaneity. Hands down, our friendship is the definition of genuine and unconditional. I love our walks, talks, and numerous put downs. Plus we both still have yet to plan for one anothers' birthdays because who really cares about turning 18, sheesh. I do believe it's our 19th birthdays in 2009 to look forward to. Oh and it only helps that we have matching crazy filipino mothers that love to cook for an army. Seriously Felisi ... you're one of thew few who stood by my side despite my imperfections. Thank you for hanging on to me and for letting me hang onto you. Beeeeeez!

Dear Rodrigo,
Damn I was a fool not to date your big head in sixth grade. It really does make you wonder though, where would we both be if we pursued a relationship from middle school onward to this day. Naaaaah I'm content with being your prom date and favorite bpong partner, you know it. God, I am so sorry you had to witness that whole fiasco in Pizo's office. But then again, lucky you for having that opportunity of a lifetime? Haha. Thanks for holding me back because I really was looking to do some damage. My emotions definitely outweighed my reasoning that afternoon. I remember you came into Pizo's after 5th period and you checked on me because you really did care. That look that you gave me really kept me together and just know that you will always hold a very special place en mi corazon. It's also the reason why I feel quite protective over you and any beez that would attempt to get en tu pantalones. No mames! Haha. 2008 was a great year for us but next year it only gets better. Plus we spent Christmas together and I cooked for you! Yay :)

Dear Iliana,
Mi cha cha cha <3 They say you come out of high school with a very limited amount of good friends. Well no doubt, you're one of my like, three! HOMEGIRL you really gave me a reason to keep at it at Southwest, even when I really felt like giving up. But seriously, you're the clumsiest person I have ever met (might I add the most Mexican) and I love every single bit of it. Thank you for feeding me with so much food this year ... let's see thanks to you I gained 5693475934 lbs from all the tamales, raspados, tosti locos, tortas de lomo, pozole, biyonicos, pulparindo, mamut, y MCDONALDS! Hahaha. Oh shit, remember this one ... SECREYO! Pinchi chi cho. Hands down, the second best gift you gave me this year was those Charger tickets where we watched them own those stupid ponies. The first would have to be your friendship. Gracias por todo cha cha. Just know that you really made a difference in my life this year and I look forward to what our friendship will develop into in the coming years, holla!

Dear Julian James,
I don't know where to begin with this one. Haha. Okay I think I know how to go about this ... I've come to the realization that during every school year, I usually have one constant going on in my life. Well, you were the constant of my last school year ... and then some. Truth is, I kept thanking you for this and that blah blah in my attempts of being optimistic with how things ended up between us two. While I did mean most of it, I don't think you deserved it. At the end of the day I still think you're an AMAZING guy with plenty to offer however it is undeniable that I give you way more credit than what is necessary. Everything we "had going" was destined for disaster from day one. All the secrecy was obviously bound to blow up in our faces eventually. What is undisputable is that we did share some amazing memories with one another because I will honestly never forget the COUNTLESS talks in the car / on the phone, the songs nasty girl and bed (which will forever remind me of you), that spot in coronado or in eastlake, the infamous silver strand, irvine spectrum, all the $ spent on movies, homework and gelato spot and all the coffee we consumed from starbucks and coffee bean. Thanks for putting up with my drama and for giving me a chance. I don't know what you've concluded in terms of what we had going but I see it as a lesson learned, and I'll leave it at that.

Dear Alexis,
La baca! Girl... you are the cutest face I have ever come across with the highest cheekbones and the whitest teeth. I think I noticed all of this from all the damn pictures I've taken with or of you. Haha. Baby Lextacy ... you are also amongst my lucky three that I was blessed to have out of high school. All those talks we had with one another in the ASB conference room and all the walks home together ... I really cannot even begin to tell you how greatful I am to have you. You're my sunshine (remember that drawing you made me?), my mother (ehem!), and my beeeeeeeeeezie! I love hanging out with you and Iliana because I don't think there's ever a dul moment between the three of us. Anyways, I'm getting pretty gay here so my point is thanks for wonderful year and for having my back. Furthermore, thanks for hearing me out because LORD knows I have a lot to say. Oh and while I'm at it, THANKS FOR DECORATING MY ROOM (and catching clumsy cha cha) on my birthday! Baaaby te quieeeero whoaaaa <3

Dear Sammy James,
You're such a perve and as immature as you are ... you have never failed to cheer me up with some dirty remark of some sort. Lol. Second period, holla! Yellow strings and Saturdays! I remember what the yellow strings meant but I honestly don't know what the Saturday represents. You know all those chats about how it's phenomenal that we've stayed buddies from day one? (when you wanted to beat my joshie poo's ass, haha) Well my point is, I am drop dead delighted to have you as my buddy. Furthermore, to have you as someone to explain any plays that I don't understand during the Charger game. Haha. And one day who knows maybe I will become desperate and succumb to your will, SIKE! "Persistence over resistance," as you claim. But seriously asshole, I love love love you es haaaames. Thanks for putting up with yet another year of my psycho babble about boys, men, and anything else I feel like bitching about. All I know is, next year will be even better! Yay :)