I was doing my makeup and I realized ... I need to sit down and just unwind. Here goes the matters on my mind that I've kept pent up; that is to say it's both good and bad.

+ I have never felt so CLOSE to my moms. Everything post the Julian era has been so surreal. We've really developed this intense bond that leaves plenty of room for mistakes and growth and over the span of a year, I can't even begin to tell you how long the both of us have come. I say that with pride because there was a point where I was convinced that our relationship was unrepairable. Little did I know that was only the beginning. Let me just add that we had an off the charts amazing Mother's Day at my domesticated big sister's condo. God I love my family!
+/- He has got me in a trance and constantly evaluating my every move. It's like ... I get a distinct vibe from him that keeps me coming back for more. Well, it's pretty well ingrained in my mind that ultimately, this could all lead to MAJOR trouble but that does not seem to stop me from going at it. This is what I mean when I say I am attracted to anything that is risky and challenging, metaphorically that is. I'm not trying to get over my head with this situation and I definitely don't want to OVER ANALYZE or misinterpret the signals so I'm just gonna stop. What happens, happens. Right?
+ I did a lot better on midterms this quarter. Now I just need to keep it up with finals and I'm free for the home stretch. Is that how the saying goes?
+ Over the course of this quarter, I've done a lot better with not only keeping in touch with people, but truly maintaining genuine relations with them. Slowly but surely, I'm finding that balance.
- Why am I still such a slacker? Carmela, oh Carmela. Procrastinating truly seems to be my middle name.
- Wish me luck because I really need to find a stable, well paying job.
+ My roomie and I have formed this indescribable bond. Sophia is a lot of the reason why I've matured in many ways. She truly is a blessing from the Hawaiian gods. Haha.

.... I suppose that's it for now? I have a research paper that I am seriously stalling to complete. I also have a hefty load of pages to read. So it's decided ... I should get on that.